Ambivalence is not apathy. It does not arise from a lack of information. Ambivalence arrives with too much information. Too many feels. Ambivalence is not the same as indifference, with which it is often confused. Someone in an ambivalent state of mind is experiencing an excess of opinion, not an absence of it. An ambivalent […]

My dream of working at a prestigious university and living near the ocean was shattered yesterday. This dream didn’t exist a month ago, so that’s a pretty quick turnaround. The hiring committee at this university invited me to interview for a video producer position on August 24th, 2017. The first round of interviews were held […]

Too much of our history will seem to have taken place in the halls of capitals, where the accusers have mostly been guilty, and so have borne witness to nothing. From “Where” by Wendell Berry If Trump wants to accuse those who stand against Nazi’s and white supremacists of being “bad dudes”, then they should […]

Day Five

Although it takes a bit of adjustment, I grow comfortable doing nothing. Our host makes us breakfast in the morning, and gives us a tour of his land. In the afternoon we take a dip in the lake, discussing baseball and Barack Obama on our floaties. In the evening our host’s grandfather pulls up on […]

Why do we even fuck with systems? Systems will not save us. I’ve used many systems to organize my days. For a freelancer, this is key. The ability to organize work days. I’ve tried simple systems, like creating a 10 item to-do list and using to select a number. I’ve tried complicated ones with […]

I’m currently reading The Silver Lining: The Benefits of Natural Disasters. The title is self-explanatory. The author, Seth R. Reices, wants us to look at “natural disasters” less as disasters and more as necessary disturbances that are, in many cases, helpful. He uses examples like the great Yellowstone fire of 1988 and the fires that […]

I don’t trust people who constantly need to be reassured. I don’t trust people who express never express selfish views. I don’t trust people who can’t just “yes” or “no”. I don’t trust people who are blue. I don’t trust people who’ve been to the moon. I don’t trust you. Yesterday I wrote about preparing […]